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Let’s see how long this one will last
can i just say that i actually really looove being single? weird, huh? well it hasnt always been that way. like any girl ive definitely had my moments of, “how nice would it be to have that special someone?” BUT recently my thoughts have completely shifted. i realized that i need to cherish my single years. these are the years when God can mold me into the woman i am meant to be. a woman of honor and patience and kindness and of FAITH and much more. i read an article that really hit home for me:
“Single women should not let their lives be consumed by their perceived “need” to find a man. All that a woman should be concerned with is devoting her life to Jesus Christ and serving Him faithfully. While a woman is waiting to find the man of her dreams, she should not fall into a slump of misery. Her heart should be enlivened and she should grow deeper in her relationship with God. If she happens to fall in love with a man, oh how lucky that man will be to find a woman who is so devoted to living her life for the Lord. If she does not, that’s fine too, because her relationship with God is enough for her and provides the eternal fulfillment that no human relationship can.”how true is that?
when i meet my future husband, i want to be sure that i am fully ready for him. i see it as a bride getting ready for her big day. shes getting her hair and make-up all done up and shes got the most beautiful dress. shes making herself the most beautiful she can for her future husband. for me, i want to make sure i prepare myself to be the most beautiful woman for my husband spiritually, mentally, etc.
ive always thought i was single because i couldnt find the right guy who lived up to my “standards” but i was so convicted that maybe its me who has to meet the right standard. what standard might this be? to love God more than anything. i want to be that woman.i dont want to just jump into a relationship for the wrong reasons. i want to be able to do it the right way.
so this i why i wait. and while i wait, i will worship and serve.
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No man will ever want me as much as God does.
No man will ever cherish me as much as God does.
Okay. I know I can’t do this on my own. So please help me. I know it took me a while to realize it. It always takes time for me to come to this realization when I’m in a situation like this. So I’m asking you one more time…please help me.
I have a friend, C. Or rather, I had a friend…we don’t talk much anymore, especially after I finished school. We were really close, but…I’m not sure what happened. We’re not close anymore. Like I said, we don’t even talk anymore. She doesn’t really talk to anybody anymore.
I’m not sure what it is I did, but yeah…it makes me sad to think how quickly our friendship died down.
Thing is, I find that we are similar in many ways. And in turn, I find that I am slowly becoming like her…kind of. Shutting people out. And I don’t know if I like it or not. And it scares me because I think a part of me likes the fact that I’m shutting people out.
I can’t handle being lonely…whether it’s the boyfriend-girlfriend type of lonely, or friendship lonely.
But I still end up ostracizing myself. And then wondering why I have no friends around me…because in the end, it’s all my own doing.
Another friend of mine told me that someone else told her that C is the type of person to test the people around her, and I think the same goes for me, too. But one of my bad habits is that there are times when I will take it too far. That’s when the friends around me end up REALLY leaving me.
I can’t seem to stop this.
What is this phase called?
The one where you listen to depressing songs and you just wallow in your own thoughts.
Letting them take control of every aspect of your life…
And all you do is pity yourself…
And put yourself down until you can’t sink any lower.
Yeah, I’m going through that phase.
i’m crazy
I tried to update my iPod touch to the new iOS 5 last night, but for some reason it would not work on my netbook (restoring/updating software on my iPod through my netbook NEVER works….), so I had to restore&upgrade through my dad’s deskstop. It said it would take four hours. So what did I do? I set my alarm for 4 AM so that I can do the final upgrade, and resync everything I have on my netbook.
I went to bed at 12:30 AM…and actually woke up and got out of bed to do all this. So here I am now. If only I had the same motivation to wake up to get ready for work. All this nonsense for my stupid iPod….;;
